this is for the guy who’s always been there for me for 2 years
this is for the guy who always want the best for me
this is for the guy who always want to protect me from heartbreak
this is for the guy who always draw a smile on my face with his quirky antics
this is for the guy who can act like an older brother, best friend, and boyfriend at the same time
this is for the guy who i still look for in busy crowds
love, this is for you
how are you? we haven’t been able to talk to each other for 3 months. the last time i heard about you is that you found another woman who can make you happy. how is she? is she treating you write? is she still making you happy? is she the on you wanted? god i hope so because i know that you know that your happiness is what matters the most to me.
we’ve known each other for 2 years now and we both know each other’s flaws and weaknesses. we’ve been in a countless fights together. we’ve witnessed a lot of achievements and milestones together. we’ve been in a numerous heartbreak. we’ve heard and seen each other cry out for help because of our own problems. we’ve comforted each other a lot. we’ve been in a rollercoaster ride with our ups and downs. we almost became lovers, a lot of times, but it didn’t happen because fate chose to disagree with the thought of us being together.
sixth of the first month of the year—i’m sure you don’t remember but it’s the date that we first met. i still celebrate it up to this day. you asked for help. you came to me for an advice even you didn’t know me that much. you trusted me with your problem. you listened to my advice which surprised me; why would you listen to someone’s advice when you barely know them? but you did. and in the next day, you thanked me because it worked.
i still see you everyday. i still look for you, even there’s a huge crowd in between of us two. i still look for your familiar face; the face that i’ve known to love. do you look for me too? the way that you used to do? because your eyes doesn’t meet mine anymore. because whenever i’m looking for you, you’re looking at somebody else. i can’t see you in my peripheral vision either.
where are you? where is the old you? where is the old you that i almost fell in love with? where is the old you that has always been on my side? where is the old you that comforts me when i needed it the most? where is the old you that smiles at me whenever we see each other? where is my old best friend? where is my old almost-boy-friend? where are you love? where are you hiding?
day by day, our relationship is dying and i cannot do anything to save it. we are slowly drifting apart from each other without us realizing. we are slowly turning cold to each other and it’s frustrating because you didn’t even notice it.
who is the one to blame? should i blame you for slowly drifting away ?or should i blame myself because i let you drift away from me? or should we blame ourselves for not doing anything? for not being enough for each other? or should we put the blame on fate for letting this happen to us?
is it you who changed? is it me? or is it the both of us?
will you ever come back? will i ever come back to you? will we come back to each other?